Ugh

Typed on January 5, 2011:

I am getting overwhelmed again. I can literally say that this time I have been able to eat a little bit of food after being sick for a few days. I always get myself down when I don't take my medicine like I am supposed to. I have had so many things going on in my head and not enough time in the day. I also got a little bit of sleep as well.

I am dog ass tired. I am a crazy person at times. I am just so starving. I don't know what is wrong with me anymore. I can't go out to eat because I get so sick. No, I am not pregnant, but I would like to know what is wrong with me. I also get sick for days on end and then I don't eat for days and then I feel perfectly fine and then start binge eating. I know my life isn't to thrilling, since I haven't taken my meds in a few days, I am like a Zombie right now, I am just not into the BRAINS, BRAINS, BRAINS. :) I am going to try and fix something to eat and maybe today I will have more of an interest.

I was actually able to call my kids today, yesterday Jonesboro had something wrong with their towers and there wasn't anyway that I could call. They are both better, they aren't sick or didn't sound that way at the time. Joshua was glad I called and Xavier actually talked to me as well. I love my boys like crazy. I can't wait till this weekend when I am able to get them again. I love my babies. I love them so much. Joshua is my momma's boy. I can't wait till this summer when they get to live with me and if they like it, they will get to stay with me and go to school. Joshua is so excited, he is momma's boy all the way. :) Well anyways, just wanted to update on that. I hope everyone has a great night.