I am doing this blog in the color I feel right now. I feel so blue (singing Blue by Leanne Rhymes). Last night I started crying non-stop (while watching Duck Dynasty) about 9 to 10 pm. All of my loved ones starting going through my head that has passed as well as my pets that have passed as well. I for the life of me couldn't figure out why I was having major crying spells.
My grandma (D.T) stayed on my mind while I was trying to figure everything out. At 11:58 pm I noticed what day it was fixing to be and that would be my grandma's birthday if she was still alive. I cannot stop thinking about her and crying. I miss her so much. I can't tell how much that I miss her and I know the rest of my family do too. I know she is up there, teaching everyone and carrying for everyone as well as the animals. I know she is taking care of my animals until I make it up there. I miss them all like crazy. Family was my comfort zone and when I moved my animals became my comfort zone. When you live an hour away from your children it is hard not to feel love back.
When my grandma passed away, a part of me died too. When 3 of my 5 pets passed away, even more of me died too. I wish there was a way that I could raise awareness here in Jackson County about adopting animals. You are saving a life when you do that. There are many animals on death row here and it really upsets me. The pound is full because the humane society can't take in anymore because they are over their limit as it is. They can only hold/kennel 67 max and right now they have over 90 dogs. There is a puppy on death row right now in Corning and it is really hard to keep her from being killed on Monday or Tuesday and here it is Saturday.
Enough about pets. I still haven't been asleep yet and I know that I am just rambling on. Well, I think it is time for me to get off of here and go to sleep. Hope everyone has a great day today.
Saturday, September 7, 2013
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Update Since Last Post
I know it has been awhile since I last posted. I was really on the fence on what to do:
I ended up trying to call the police station anonomously and even tried contacting several different people online, and everyone had read my msg but didn't ever respond to me. I even got another msg from the other side (after all the rain) stating that she was no longer where I was told she was in the beginning but she was in the black river as well. I once again tried calling the station and re contacting the people that I had msged previously.
Well, they were read once again and never responded to. Well, about 2 weeks to a month (can't remember which), but a fisherman, ended up finding her in the black river where I had previously stated before and told everyone I could think of. I hate when people think yeah right, she is stupid, she isn't real and stuff like that, but I do know the difference between what I am being told and my own thoughts.
I was really heartbroken for awhile because they would have found her a lot sooner than what they did and that the family would have been at peace a lot sooner. It just really tore me up that nobody took me seriously. I know it obviously sounds weird coming from a total stranger and I understand that several people don't believe in the other side. But I do and I know several other people that do. It happens to the best of us and it is very hard to understand the difference at first when you realize that you have that ability to understand and hear the other side. I will post more either later on tonight or tomorrow.
Goodnight everyone!!
I ended up trying to call the police station anonomously and even tried contacting several different people online, and everyone had read my msg but didn't ever respond to me. I even got another msg from the other side (after all the rain) stating that she was no longer where I was told she was in the beginning but she was in the black river as well. I once again tried calling the station and re contacting the people that I had msged previously.
Well, they were read once again and never responded to. Well, about 2 weeks to a month (can't remember which), but a fisherman, ended up finding her in the black river where I had previously stated before and told everyone I could think of. I hate when people think yeah right, she is stupid, she isn't real and stuff like that, but I do know the difference between what I am being told and my own thoughts.
I was really heartbroken for awhile because they would have found her a lot sooner than what they did and that the family would have been at peace a lot sooner. It just really tore me up that nobody took me seriously. I know it obviously sounds weird coming from a total stranger and I understand that several people don't believe in the other side. But I do and I know several other people that do. It happens to the best of us and it is very hard to understand the difference at first when you realize that you have that ability to understand and hear the other side. I will post more either later on tonight or tomorrow.
Goodnight everyone!!
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