I am so at my fucking witz end with everything!!!! Someone stole my bi polar and psych meds and the dr refused to let me get on a plan that pays for them. I can't afford 400 plus dollars a month anymore for fucking meds ppl!!! WTF is wrong with me, well hell I know, I can't stand people who do stupid shit like this to me. Hubby's boys are out of school and he talked to his ex cunt and asked her if he could get them for the 6 weeks that he is supposed to have them (which he may have them longer now). She said sure, if you drive all the way to come get them. Hubby won't get paid until Thursday and the fucking bitch has a car and a job, so wtf is wrong with her meeting us halfway like she always did? She is a lazy ass fucking hoe that I wish would just die so we can have the kids 24-7.
We drove almost every time all the way to fucking Ft. Smith when her sorry ass lived there and when she moved to Imboden we would drive all the way there because of her lying ass, and we have drove all the way to Pokie (Pocahontas) several fucking times and now she wants us to do it again. She has came all the way here, just 1 fucking time!!! Per the decree she is supposed to meet halfway!!! Per child support, he drives all the way to get them, and she drives all the way to pick them up. I guess that is what we will have to do, since a friend is offering to loan hubby and I the money to go and get them. We are going to drive all the way to get them and her sorry ass is going to drive all the way to pick them up. Sounds like a great deal to me now. Okay, on another note. My sister is coming home from Mexico. She should be in LR within the next hour or so. I have been cleaning this house like crazy!!! I still feel like I am a fucking Hoarder though.
I know I shouldn't feel that way at all, but I do. I downsized from a huge 3 bdrm 1 1/2 bath home to a friggin 2 bdrm 1 bath trailer. So I left a lot of shit behind, but at the same time, I still have a shit load. I am trying really hard to sell things to get some money and get rid of things. Nothing seems to be working as I planned. I am going to try to get this front room cleaned up as good as I can. I have dishes going in the dishwasher right now. Ugh, when will all of this crap end? I have to get the kids' bedroom squared away some how due to the fact the boys need their room. I still have to steam clean floors because of the dogs pissing on the carpet yet again. I need a steam cleaner that has the detachable hose for furniture as well.
When our ex room mate lived here and slept on the couch, we have some big stains on my sofa now which pissed me the fuck off. I can't handle much anymore. I am definently not going to let anyone move in and lie to me the way that this person did. Lied about not having money, lied about willing to clean, and when this person did clean, they threw a shit load of stuff that was personal away. I am already at my witz end with all this bs that is going on in my life. I am so ready to start cutting again. Without my meds, I dunno how much longer I can go without. Well, I think that I am done venting for now. I may end up venting more later on today.
