OH, I GOT IT!!! I know exactly what to talk about. Hubby and I have been having some major issues the last week now. I found out that he is trying to find a woman for a booty call. Does it bother me, hell yeah!!! I am so upset I don't know what to do anymore. Lord knows he has lost all trust with me and he may never get it back at all. I am seriously trying to figure out why he would go outside the thought of me and him being the only one's to be together. We are married and it just really eerks me that he would even attempt to do this to me.
I asked him why he would do this to me and he said it is because he isn't getting sex from me. WTF!!! Go pleasure yourself in the bathroom, I would rather you do that than find someone else to screw and possibly bring something home to me. He told me that I am not like I used to be. Umm duh dumbass. I have nerve damage where I can't really feel sex at all. It really bothers me a lot. I know all of this stuff is personal but I have really got to get it off of my chest before I go crazy on someone without even meaning too. I haven't been able to have the BIG O since August of 2010. That is when the nerve was cut off and all feeling below the waist and bodily functions couldn't be helped. It really bothers me because the nerve is basically to the point of no return, they told me that the feeling would come back anywhere from 6 weeks to a year. Yeah, 3 years later it is the same.
I am so upset I can't stand it. I told hubby the other day that he also needs to start helping around here. Of course, he was pissed at the fact that I even mentioned something like that. The house can't clean itself (though I really wish that it could), and I can't physically do a lot at a time. I have tried everything that I know to do with this place on my own. When my kids are here they honestly try and help me out, but when they aren't it is just me. I told hubby that if he didn't start helping me out that there is no point of him even being in the same household as me. I heard the same damn excuses that I have heard since my emergency back surgery in 2010, I PROMISE I will help you out more. I know that you can't do everything. I PROMISE if you ask me to do something that I will do it. Yeah, his promises ain't worth shit. You know they say a person is only as good as their word, ROFLMAO, wtf does that say about him?
There are so many things that literally have to be done in the house and he doesn't give a rats @ss on having it done or helping with it. I am hoping and praying that my pain pill will kick in so that I can actually start in on doing some things here in the house. If I wouldn't of taken a nap earlier then I would have been able to have most of what I needed to do done.
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Enough about that. I hope this to will pass. Have a great night everyone!!!
