Ugh, I have been needing to blog for the past week. My life has been so hectic it is pathetic. I just feel so drained anymore. Why the hell do Tyler Perry movies always get to me? I am ready to toss all these dogs outside and shove a sock in the guys mouths. Jacksonport got evacuated so Victor are taken my boys to Amy's parents house, I don't approve of it at all and I am gonna get my kids one way or the fucking other. Lord, I mean this crap is really irritating me. I have been in a pissy mood for the past few days. Anyways, here is an update.
Sunday the 24th we drove all the way to Killeen, TX to get Jayme and we got back home Monday the 25th at about 10 am. I was swollen so bad that my legs were draining, it was pitiful and horrible. I drove more than halfway there and back. I wasn't supposed to, but I did. I about passed out a few times. Grandma protected us through it all. She let the storms bypass us or us bypass the storms. We heard all about tornadoes but thank the Lord we didn't run into any storms at all. It didn't start raining until we were home for good. Wednesday I went to go and have back surgery and they got me in there and prepped me and everything and I woke up suffocating from the tube that they had down my throat. They had the cover over my hand and as I was trying to signal to them that I couldn't breathe, I was finally able to move my hand and when I did the tape caught onto the cover and came out of my hand and they tried saying that I ripped it out, which I know for a fact that I didn't. Also, I am wondering why my breasts where exposed. That I don't understand at all. I felt the cold gloved hand on my bare breast. I was dirty and wet when they brought me back to the room so I had to shower and clean myself up. I felt so embarrassed over that. I called today to reschedule, I was actually able to start talking this past Saturday from the tube being down my throat. I haven't felt right since then at all. I have blacked out or passed out 2 times that I know of. I dunno if my bp is to low or my sugar is. I haven't gotten a clue. I have been trying to eat.
I have been getting nauseated. I can literally say I have smoked 1 full cigarette since we got home on Monday. I haven't had a smoke since Thursday. My chest is still killing me and I dunno why, but I thank the Lord that no smoking has came out of the deal. The smell of it makes me sick as well. Anyways, I hope and pray that they can get me scheduled for surgery asap. My pre-screen is only good for 30 days. This time I am going to try to wear my pull up until I get to the room for surgery. I should hear something tomorrow on rescheduling. Okay, enough about that.
Well, I hope and pray that Craig's other job calls him tomorrow and tells him to start ASAP. If it wasn't for my sister we wouldn't have enough to finish paying rent or even have gas money. I really wish I could get school money. I am already failing this class because my stupid ass teacher doesn't want anything to do with me or anything, I am guessing. I have im'd here and even sent her e-mails. I was like wtf!?!?! Anyways, I am going to blog more tomorrow.
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