Going Crazy

So much has been going on in my life that it has been crazy. My dad and I got into it Friday night because he was canceling Mother's Day for us. I called him and we started arguing and stuff and he brought up that my sister and I act like nobody else has problems in their lives and bs like that and it really frustrated me. I know everyone has problems, some a lot worse than others. My dad acted like I was trying to get money or something from him, which I have only asked from him one time my entire life and that was to finish paying for my divorce from my second husband. I got school money finally and I paid all the bills and Craig got pissed off at me, because it gave me enough money to pay for my meds.

I would rather pay bills than do without electricity, phone, and internet. Craig should find out about this other job that he has tomorrow and hopefully he will hear about the one that he is supposed to have on the weekends. That would be so perfect for him to be working them. I hope and pray that I get my ss disability like asap. I really need it, because I want the heck out of here. I have been wanting to cut so bad lately. I have been so frigging stressed out it is pitiful. I haven't cut so I guess that is the plus about it. I had a cut on the back of my thigh that I knew nothing about and hubby pointed it out after I showered so we bought some medicated band aids to put over it that is latex free, well it was itching my like crazy and hubby took it off of me and it ripped the hell out of my skin so it bled like crazy which made me have to frigging doctor it up some more.

I should get my results tomorrow from my doctor appointment tomorrow, hopefully I am cleared so that I can reschedule my back surgery. I am ready to have it and get it over with. Well, since today is Mother's Day, my dad called me last night and said that the bbq was back on. I thought it was awesome then I found out my kids where back at their dads so I got to see them today as well. My day has been truly blessed and awesome. :) My niece and nephew was a riot and it was just frigging awesome watching all the kids play. My mom got to see what I have been talking about with my paralyzed foot and mom and dad and my sister got to see how it is when I just get unstable and almost fall. I felt bad because my dad started making fun of me saying the house didn't shift and that I did. I said I know, but my left leg gets so tired of doing all the work that it gives out and it almost puts me on the ground. Well, I guess that is enough about me blogging. I will blog tomorrow after I get my results and appointment. I hope everyone has a GREAT MOTHER'S DAY!!!