Much needed update

I know I haven't updated in a long time. I am going to be doing another blog under a different name but still here on blog spot and on livejournal. My posts will be public instead of private and I like that a lot better than privately. Thank you all for joining and being with me through this time. Here are the links to the other accounts.


http://mrsspookster.blogspot.com



http://mrsspookster.livejournal.com

Sick of bs

I am so sick and tired of not having any money from income taxes. Its really pissing me off!!! Every year child support holds out more than they send a letter for and there is always something else. Its fucking bs and I am so sick and fucking tired of it. Im tired of making plans to use my income tax for especially when it is needed for bills. I mean what have I done not to deserve anything that I am required to have? Every year for the last 5 years they have stole my money as well as my soms money and it isnt right. I can careless about the money stolen from me but when it comes to my kids I am highly pissed off. I dont know what to do or where I go about snapping at all the right people for this shit. I just feel like God is punishing me somehow. What did I do? Its bad enough that I have nerve damage and have had all the back surgeries and cant do 90% of what I used to could. I miss chasing my kids around the yard, I miss riding rides with them at the carnival, I absolutely miss what all has been taken away from me. I am tired and wore out and I cant keep going on like this. Im about to have a major fucking break down and I cant keep acting like everything is hunky dory when it is completely far from it. I dont ask for much, at least I dont feel like I do. I am just sick of everything and cant handle much more. Prayers arent seeming to help in anyway. Please God just give me a break!!!